Catharsis of a living ghost

This is it. I’ve reached the edge of the cliff. The climb was well worth the exhaustion. I learned a lot from every rock that tripped me and every slip I encountered along the way.

This is the end of this journey for me. As I stood on the edge, I pondered on how far I have gone. This isn’t the peak of this mountain, but I cannot carry on anymore. It would be foolish to try and climb higher. I’m so tired.

I looked down the cliff and felt a searing pain in my chest. My heart started beating three times faster. I stood there thinking of what I should do. I normally don’t have a fear of heights, but this one is just too high for me.

Looking back, I found my friends trudging along the path. Some were really determined to carry on. Nobody noticed that I have strayed from the trail. Even I, myself, didn’t notice that my feet were taking me somewhere else.

Tears started flowing from my eyes. I moved one step backward. Suddenly, my power animal appeared beside me. It’s a Lion. His majestic golden locks swayed with the wind. He brings with him a distinguished air of confidence and optimism.

“Jump!” he roars at me.

“This is crazy!”, I yelled back at him but he completely ignored my statement.

“Your salvation lies in rising after you’ve completely fallen” he says calmly this time.

Hmm…

I don’t understand what he’s telling me. What I do know is that I need to jump off this cliff. There are no other options left for me.

Salvation. That’s such a promising word.

“Let yourself go” my lion says.

I thought of my friends and how oblivious they are of my plight. I can’t blame them. The world is too busy to empathize. We all have our own yokes to carry.

None of this makes sense. I am trying my best to delay the situation but I know that this won’t solve the problem.

Its time to face the challenge.

I closed my eyes and thought of my mantra – “Breathe in. Breathe out. Let go.” I said this over and over to myself.

“Okay” I said finally, with the calm conviction of a Zen master.

My lion looked pleased after I said this. “Very well, then” he replied.

I dropped my baggage and took off all my clothes. I’m taking nothing but memories with me.

I started with a small shaky step and I followed it with another. The next one was more relaxed. As if I have humbly resigned to my fate.

This is it.

Breathe in. Breathe out. Let go.

I jumped off the cliff with open arms.

My lion jumped with me and we are now falling down the dark abyss. Fast and without a trace of uncertainty that we are going down. I forced my eyes open. Here I am now. I am embracing the force of gravity.

He gave off one loud roar.

And as we continued falling down, I heard music.

♪♫ Blackbird singing in the dead of night. Take these broken wings and learn to fly…All your life…You were only waiting for this moment to arrive

Black bird singing in the dead of night. Take these sunken eyes and learn to see…all your life… you were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly…Into the light of the dark black night. ♪♫

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